I made enemies today. And I think I lost a good friend.
It was entirely my fault. I was confronted with a heavy situation where I had to make a hard decision about something pretty important to my future within a very short time frame. I won’t go into the details, but I made a very rash decision with very unfortunate consequences.
I did learn something from it. I learned that I am not very decisive. Small decisions I can do ok with, but the big ones require a lot of careful analysis and I cannot definitively make them quickly. I also learned that when rushed on big decisions I seem to leave out very important factors that could make all the difference once considered.
So, in postmortem of this massive cluster… uh, mess, I conclude that I have to work on my ability to consider the most important things first when making decisions, and that I need to at a minimum do some rudimentary fact checking to verify that the decision is even needed at all.
Conclusion: I am an ass.
I don’t really want to be an ass though, so Fred would you quit being an ass please?