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March 24, 2010

Friend lost

Filed under: Personal, Professional — Fred @ 8:28 pm

I made enemies today. And I think I lost a good friend.

It was entirely my fault. I was confronted with a heavy situation where I had to make a hard decision about something pretty important to my future within a very short time frame. I won’t go into the details, but I made a very rash decision with very unfortunate consequences.

I did learn something from it. I learned that I am not very decisive. Small decisions I can do ok with, but the big ones require a lot of careful analysis and I cannot definitively make them quickly. I also learned that when rushed on big decisions I seem to leave out very important factors that could make all the difference once considered.

So, in postmortem of this massive cluster… uh, mess, I conclude that I have to work on my ability to consider the most important things first when making decisions, and that I need to at a minimum do some rudimentary fact checking to verify that the decision is even needed at all.

Conclusion: I am an ass.

I don’t really want to be an ass though, so Fred would you quit being an ass please?

January 16, 2009

In the breakroom

Filed under: Personal, Professional — Fred @ 12:50 pm

MG: So sombody should have thrown some shoes at the President at his going away speech and called him a son of a dog.

FD: Heh, yeah like that reporter in Iraq.

MG: You know over there “son of a dog” is a really bad thing, but over here it isn’t so bad…  it’s like calling someone a pig here.

FD: Well we have a similar saying here, “son of a bitch” is like calling someone a son of a dog, cause a bitch is just a kind of dog…

MG: Really?

DW: Unless you like dogs, then it’s a compliment.

FD: Uh.

MG: It’s a compliment?  If you like dogs?

DW: Yeah I call all my friends “bitch”.

FD: [ROFL]

MG: [...]

DW: What?  That’s not common?


Yeah, I think I could convey more of the humor of the moment by present this as a comic strip… note to self: make this a comic strip someday.

July 10, 2008

Perl in new clothing

Filed under: Professional — Fred @ 1:38 pm

I’ve been temporarily assigned to the build team at work to help create a stable system for assembling test and customer deliverables. It’s a fun project to work on, but most of the system is written in Ruby, a relatively new language that is basically the Perl programming language in new clothing. By new clothing I mean that it has a dressed up syntax that I guess makes people feel warm and fuzzy inside, but from what I’ve seen that is the only substantive difference.

I’ve heard a lot of people grumble about Perl, how hard it is to do this, or how complicated it is to do that… or how frustrating it is that there are a dozen different ways to accomplish the same thing. I will usually respond with a quiet and condescending smile while they rant. Honestly I just don’t understand what they are whining about – Perl is one of the greatest languages ever created because of its flexibility. I suppose that those who gripe about it have likely not worked with it enough to see its beauty and power. And I suppose that for those people it is necessary to have another language that is almost exactly the same thing, but with a “simpler” syntax that draws the lines of acceptable code more clearly in the sand.

A pity if you ask me, but I will acquiesce. I will learn the Ruby syntax and follow the more rigid rules. A lot of people have built their identities, their careers, and even their religions on the Ruby language so there must be something to it.

We just won’t tell them that “that something” is really Perl!

May 9, 2008

The London bridge…

Filed under: Politics, Professional — Fred @ 1:19 pm

“Hey Fred, did you hear about the London deal?”

“What London deal? No.”

“The company wants to send a few guys to London to work on the new eBorders contract.”

“Wha… what the hell? Sign me up man, I’d love to go.”

<Fade to black>

That same day I let our HR guy know that I wanted to go. He gave me a quick run-down of the benefits they were offering and said that there were only a few other people that had expressed interest.

Gradually over the next week, as our HR guy received more information from the guys running the contract we learned that the benefits were even more attractive than we could have imagined and that we were pretty much guaranteed a position! They advised everyone interested – which at that point had grown to around 20 – to get their lives and passports ready, they would likely need to leave in 4-6 weeks. The atmosphere around the office was absolutely jovial as we talked and researched and prepared for our deployment. Then we waited for more information.

And we waited.

And waited.

Nothing.

Our HR guy became so inundated with requests for information that he started working out of the other office and when he sensed that someone was nearby would utter a preemptory: “No, I don’t have any information yet. I will let you know when I do.”

Weeks went by, nothing.

A month, nothing.

The expected time of deployment came and went, and we still had no information. Rumors started to spread, tempers started to flare, discontent and unease were the norm, and the frustration that we felt was reaching a breaking point.

Finally almost two months into our misery something happened. A friend of mine who’s balls of Tungsten Steel are now unanimously uncontested wrote an email to the CEO of our company and in no uncertain terms demanded an explanation and information about our deployment status. A few others, after seeing what he had written also wrote emails to the executives, lending support to what he had written. Unfortunately, the response we received was not what we were wanted.

We did indeed get information about the contract and our status with it, but none of it was good. Our CEO to his credit did some investigating and found that the project organizers now wanted to staff the project in Texas instead of in London. Yes… Texas. Who the f$ck wants to go to Texas?! Still more demoralizing was the fact that they needed significantly fewer numbers of people than they had let us believe. Most of us would not even get the chance to go to Texas.

I was still under consideration though, my information had been passed to the project leaders and I was told that they would contact me “soon.” Even after the devastating email from the CEO I held on to the glimmer of hope that they would again change their minds and send me to London. As improbable as it was I held on to that hope for another month until I got a short email from the division manager thanking me for my interest, and that my resume would remain on file for other opportunities in the future.

I am actually quite proud of the self-control I exhibited and continue to maintain as a result of that email. The rage I felt – feel – whenever I think of that email, if left unchecked would have me writing the most profane and vicious things to anyone involved in the decision making for that project. I, as many of my friends here, feel absolutely betrayed and taken advantage of. It is the worst managed process I have ever witnessed in my professional life, and leads me to thoughts of ropes, whips, barbs, and lots and lots of blood… which is why I must now redirect my thoughts to something else.

Never trust your company to deliver on any promises it does not give you in writing.

May 5, 2008

Need some extra dough

Filed under: Personal, Professional — Fred @ 11:05 am

Every time I find myself thinking seriously about making some extra cash to pay off debt, to get some new toy, or some new utility I go through the same mental list of how to get it.

The first thing I think of is software contracts. Obvious, since it’s what I do for a living… but actually getting software contracts is like finding a carbon fiber filament in a briar patch. Well, let me rephrase that – actually getting people to pay me for doing a software contract is like … well you know the rest.

The second thing I think of is to build an e-commerce web site. Seems easy enough since I’ve built quite a few before – for other people. The problem is that I can never seem to actually plug all of the pieces together on this one… What would the domain name be? What would I sell? How am I going to find the time to build it? Ugh.. frustrating, but this one I think actually has promise if I can just pull it together.

The third thing I think of is to become an agent for import/export – buyers and/or sellers. I have a great opportunity since a very good friend of mine owns a business and does just that. Also my father-in-law owns a skin care products business and I have an “in” there. This one also seems to fizzle out though, whether it’s because of lukewarm reception from my wife regarding her father’s business or because of my hesitance to impose on my friend or something else… it just fizzles.

The fourth thing I think of is usually one of robbing some criminal organization (they’re bad guys anyway, right?) or the cliche’d “invention and changing the world with my idea” idea, or starting my own gun store or something… this one will last for the occasional daydream but leaves pretty quickly when the dream is over.

And then after all of the mental hype and brainstorming is over I’m left here, sitting at my desk resigned to the fact that my only hope of additional monetary increase is to do just enough at my real job to get a 2% (or more) raise next year.

Man I’m really looking forward to the day when that 2% raise will get me out of debt. That golden day that is approximately 16,425 days from now. Woo hoo!

April 17, 2008

Refrigerator Magnets

Filed under: Politics, Professional — Fred @ 2:34 pm

Some time ago someone brought word magnets into the office and put them on the breakroom fridge. Ever since there’s been a flood of creative phrases as anonymous authors have battled over the allocation of the more precious words like “In”, “To”, etc.

To date I must take credit for the most long-running (and most creative, IMO) phrase on the fridge:

Dubya Sells US To OPEC And Bans Peace

Haha, yeah Fred you tell em! Well just recently there has been a little shake-up and some words were stolen from my phrase so I decided to make another one:

Dubya Puts Hairy Pink Fish In Texas Dwarf Taco

Heh, yeah that’ll start em talking…

October 28, 2005

Yuck! I got VBA all over me

Filed under: Professional — Fred @ 3:43 pm

Well, as it is with most jobs the new guy always gets stuck with the stuff that nobody else wants. Thus it is that I became the new maintainer of the massive spreadsheet of suck. In the past two weeks I have become the new expert in back-end VB scripting to pull data from SQL Server into Excel. Oh, Ranges, Cells, ADODB, and the lovely world of Capital Fscking Letters!@! I feel so dirty… I think I’m going to take a shower now.

October 23, 2005

Multiple Dimensions

Filed under: Professional, Religion, Science — Fred @ 7:54 pm

I’ve always believed that alternate dimensions exist, even as a child. It is something that has dug its way into my vision of reality over the years, a belief that needs no proof, no test, no scientific backing. That is why when I listened to a re-run today of National Science Friday I was interested in the topic: Multiple Dimensions, are they real?

I must admit that the beginnings of my belief in alternate dimensions stem from religious instruction. As a child I learned about the eternal nature of spirits, about how the human soul began before birth and would continue after death. It is a beautiful doctrine really, and an easy one to understand and when I was taught that the spirits of those who’ve died remain here on the earth it started the idea of an alternate “reality”, or dimension. This was backed up by further research into religious writings and through my own logical deductions. I also realized as I got older that the market for voodoo, fortune tellers, palm readers, and “intermediaries” was pretty hot in many societies, and even though most in the scientific community would scoff at the suggestion I believe there is something real about some of these practices.

The problem with thinking about it in a purely scientific manner is that there really is no finite proof that these things are valid. There is no process that one can follow that would reproduce a metaphysical event that could offer any hard proof that spirits exist and can “be” in the same physical space as the rest of us… I’m ok with that. It’s all good. It really doesn’t need proof – in fact if there were proof I don’t think that the scientific community would be able to handle it. Yet.

I love science. Physics has become one of the most fascinating subjects of study for me in recent years, and I plan to follow it up with at least an advanced degree. My new five-year goal is become known as Fred the physicist, with the hard earned pedigree to back it up.

Someday I believe we’ll discover evidence of these alternate dimensions. Someday we may even be able to see into them. There has been some excellent progress of late into the study of these dimensions, but nothing substantial has resulted from it – only the excitement of being on the verge of something great. That, however, is one of the greatest types of discoveries there are. It creates the motivation to continue, the willpower that moves the immovable and discovers the undiscoverable.

Everything is matter. Some things however are just a different kind of matter, a more refined type of matter. Something we just cannot yet see.

October 14, 2005

McCann Medical Matrix

Filed under: Professional — Fred @ 10:41 am

Today is my last day with the company that has taught me more about succeeding in life than any other. I have struggled with the decision to leave for a long time, and I’m still not sure it is the right one. It is truly one of the greatest experiences I’ve ever had.

Such is life though, always changing. I have to believe that leaving is the right decision, it has forced me to look at my life and my lifelong objectives in a much more realistic way. John McCann has taught me one of life’s great lessons of success: that it is far, far better to see the world in your rear-view mirror then to watch it pass by from the sidewalk. Meaning of course, that it is only through getting things done and taking risks that any success will happen.

One of the things I will miss most is the drive to work. Depending on the day the drive consists of walking across the hall from my bedroom to the home office, or going through Parley’s canyon to John’s house in the mountains by Jeremy Ranch and the Canyons Ski Resort. Both commutes have been extremely inspiring, and have implanted in me an absolute will to someday soon acquire both again.

I am truly going to miss working with John, Bill, and Tom. I have no doubt that McCann Medical Matrix, LLC will become a wildly successful and profitable company. My best wishes to them, and hope that I can continue to help them out occasionally on a contract basis.

If you’re reading this, are an Oculoplastic surgeon or Ophthalmologist, and would like to convert your office to the best paperless environment created for your medical specialization call Bill McCann. It will be well worth your time. Info at http://www.mccannmedicalmatrix.com

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